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backupdump002Ugh, I've felt really out of it these past couple of weeks. I've just been oddly introspective and depressed and can't seem to focus on anything else and auuuuggggh. I think it's going away, though, finally.
The roads on our street are getting rebuilt. I don't really know why since the roads seemed perfectly fine to me, but I think it has something to do with stability or something..? Because they're seriously just tearing everything out, including the curbs and driveway ends and stuff. I dunno. I guess if it had to be done then it's a good thing that they're doing it, but it's kind of annoying since now we can't really leave the house. Not to mention that the construction workers come in at like 5 AM and like to make as much noise as possible, with the random screaming arguments and singing and setting the neighbor's yard on fire. No, really.
Soooo, looks like Spore is coming out September 7th. I freaked out over this game when I first heard about it, but thinking about it now, it... well, it actually looks kind of boring. Maybe I'm being kind of hard on it due to my deep-seated hatred of sim games (aside from The Sims/Sims 2, but y'know), but in my experience, games where you just run around without any actual sense of an ulterior motive can only remain interesting for so long before you just get sick of the whole thing and never pick it up again. This is why I could never get into MMOs -- you fight enemies, level up, maybe do a quest or two, and... that's it. That's the game. You don't have any real goal or purpose besides "get stronger so you can fight stronger enemies," and while that may seem fun for a while, it usually doesn't take too long before the whole thing just feels completely pointless.
But like I said, maybe I'm being hard on it. See, I played a TON of sim games when I was younger -- Sim Park, Theme Park, Sim Theme Park, Theme Hospital, Sim Ant, Sim Earth, Sim Farm, Sim City, Sim Copter, Rollercoaster Tycoon, Zoo Tycoon, Sim Safari, Pharaoh, Pet Shop (ahahahaha), both Animal Crossing games, two Harvest Moon games, Catz/Dogz/Babyz, Creatures, and probably a bunch of other things I'm forgetting, and every single one of them would always leave me feeling... well... okay i'll say it THEY LEFT ME EMPTY INSIDE, OKAY? They never end, they take forever to progress in, there's no reward, no point, and after a while they become impossibly difficult so you feel like you're just fighting an uphill battle and losing in the process. It's either that or the ones like Hey You, Pikachu!, where, once you've done everything there is to be done, you're then turned loose so you can do nothing but help that freaking Bulbasaur make its lunch and beat the crap out of pinatas for the rest of eternity. Why even bother with it?
... but, knowing me, I'll still wind up checking it out just to see if I'm wrong about the whole thing. I heard a rumor that it's coming out for the Wii, so maybe I can rent it, but if not then I think Wish is going to buy it, so I can just mooch off of her. Haw haw. why do i do this to myself
TL;DR: SPORE LOOKS BORING AND I HATE SIM GAMES. LET ME BABBLE ABOUT THIS FOR THREE PARAGRAPHS.
On that note, Apollo Justice comes out... today, I guess! :B Since it's currently 2 AM and everything. I wont get to play it immediately since we just ordered last night and chose the cheapest shipping (5-10 business days), but still. Can't wait!
Videos I've been meanin' to post:
I have so much respect for these guys, seriously. They can have someone break a board over their head and not even flinch, and meanwhile I can barely make myself hold still long enough to take eyedrops. I AM SUCH A FAILURE but yeah, hardcore. :D
WE'RE JUMPING ONTO WHITE BASE! AAAAAAAAAAAAA
Am I lame for laughing at this
The most awesome one yet.
This guy has a lot of REALLY fascinating Super Smash Bros. Melee videos that pretty much just delve into every little tiny detail of the game and point out what it references. It's so amazing to see how much care Nintendo puts into making Smash Bros. games, it really is. I still haven't made it through all the videos.
JESUS CHRIST. I really wanna play this game now. Also, that music is totally awesome. ALSO, THIS.
Y'know, despite how ridiculously unfair and difficult this game is, it's actually very interesting, I think! Just all the references and how each level represents a certain game, and... I dunno. SHUT UP
This cracks me up no matter how many times I watch it. Sulfur hexafluoride is pretty cool, though.
I need to try this.
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waywardoctagon!
Once you've been tagged, the rules are you have to write a blog with 10 interesting facts/things/habits about yourself.
Finish by choosing 10 people to be tagged and list their names
1. - Duhhhhh... I'm... left-handed. I guess I'll start with that. Thankfully I've never gotten any stupid discriminatory comments or anything (LEFT-HANDED PEOPLE ARE CHILDREN OF THE DEVIL), though people do seem to be pretty mystified by it whenever they find out. Hahaha.
On that note, I should really get some left-handed scissors or something, since right-handed ones hurt like a mother. HOW DO YOU PEOPLE USE THOSE THINGS
2. - This is probably the nerdiest thing I am ever going to say in the history of ever, but here it goes.
I like to learn. That's not really a secret; I've mentioned this a few times before and sometimes post links to various edumacational videos or sites or whatever in this journal. You guys probably know this.
What I haven't told anyone, though, is that my motivation for learning is so I can apply the stuff I've learned to my characters and my little fantasy world thing that I swear to God I will do something with someday. Like... psychology helps me write realistic characters, biology helps me make believable alien races, history gives me ideas for... er... historical events. That sort of thing. Whenever I'm studying something and start to get bored or drift off, I can just tell myself "Hey, maybe I can use this!" and I get all into it (either that, or I'll look at this catalogue we have for our local community college. Looking at the classes there get me all motivated to finish high school so I can take them :B). I even have a folder called "~Center of Knowledge~" that I'm working on filling up with various notes and stuff. Yes. God I am the lamest person ever
3. - I am ridiculously forgetful and absent-minded. I'm always doing things like pouring myself a glass of water and forgetting to take it back to my room, or setting my retainers on the bathroom counter and forgetting them by the time I leave, or telling myself I'm going to do something and then forgetting what it was. And just now I thought about typing this up, then I minimized for a second to refresh my friends page and had to take a few moments to remember what I was going to say when I opened this back up. AGH
4. - I have insomnia, hence why I'm always up so late. It takes me many hours to get to sleep without pills of some sort (which reminds me, we're out). I really envy those of you who don't have it >O YOU PEOPLE AND YOUR SLEEPING
5. - It may not seem like it online, but offline I am actually very introverted and extremely shy/socially anxious :O Online you can talk to me and I'll be all capslock and silly and outgoing, but if you came up and said hi to me in real life, I'd just stammer out a reply and shuffle around and not know what to say, all while turning progressively more red. Like a radish. Because radishes are very socially awkward vegetables. wait what
But this is why I'm kind of worried, like... if I were to ever meet you guys in real life, like at a con or something. I mean, I think it'd be great and everything, but I'm just worried I'd wind up being a big disappointment. D:
6. - I have a fairly smallish appetite and tend to get nauseated a little easily (especially in cars, though that's a different topic :B). It's mainly just the real heavy/hearty stuff that gets me, like hamburgers and beef stew and pancakes (MY MORTAL ENEMY) and so on. My stomach is churning just thinking about it, gah.
But yeah. Maybe this is why I'm so scrawny. I JUST NEED A GREAT BIG HAM SANDWICH, THAT'LL SET ME STRAIGHT
7. - I don't like being touched that much. I'm not the sort of person who will FLIP OUT SJGKHDFGKADGK over being touched or anything, but I just get kinda uncomfortable and... non-responsive, I guess? Family members and close friends are alright, though. :D
8. - I'm actually not a huge fan of chocolate. I don't mind it in small doses, like on a sundae or in a cookie or something, but if it's like one of those desserts you get at restaurants and stuff where it's all chocolate cake with chocolate icing and chocolate syrup and chocolate chips on top, then it's just... blehhh. SOUNDS LIKE A STOMACH ACHE, TO ME >(
On that note, my favorite type of chocolate is white chocolate. IF NOT BEING A BIG FAN OF CHOCOLATE WAS ENOUGH TO CONVINCE PEOPLE THAT I'M INSANE, THEN THE FACT THAT I LIKE WHITE CHOCOLATE IS SURELY THE FINAL NAIL IN THE COFFIN
9. - Uh... my reading comprehension is at college level! Or at least that's what the standardized tests back in 6th (5th? I dunno) grade said. Kinda cool, I guess.
10. - I'm reeeeeally debating over whether or not I should put this here, and I'm probably going to horribly regret this when I wake up tomorrow, but I actually had a slightly rocky childhood. It's not something I generally talk about since there's never any real reason to, and I wouldn't even think of trying to compare it with someone who actually had it bad, but I just never really emotionally connected with anyone. Kids at school didn't like me for some reason and singled me out, my siblings hated me (I thought so, anyway. If they did care, then they sure didn't show it in front of me), their friends didn't like me, and my parents, while nice, were on the negligent side. I just had a hard time being accepted by people (which is odd, since there wasn't much about me that needed accepting in the first place. Shy kid who likes cartoons and games and playing pretend, 'has a bit of a smart mouth at times but it's all in good fun. so terrible and weird omg), and had to just entertain myself, pretty much (and I usually turned to video games and the computer to do so. SURPRISE!!!!). I'M REALLY TRYING TO PUT EVERYTHING LIGHTLY HERE SINCE I DON'T WANT TO BRING THE WHOLE POST DOWN WITH MY ANGSTY CHILDHOOD MEMORIES, but I really did have a pretty rough time; 'took a huge blow to my self-esteem, confidence, and self-perception. It actually wasn't until semi-recently (one, two years ago?) that things finally started flowing a bit more smoothly and I got over my depression and everything. Things are much, much better now, and I have, for the most part, moved on. I still suffer from some of the side-effects, but I'm working on that. Things didn't start out very well, but they've perked up. It just took a lot (a lot, you have no idea) of patience.
But, uh... ayup. IT EXPLAINS A LOT, REALLY. But y'know, in a way, I wouldn't change any of it. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, right?
Man, this whole thing came out a lot longer than originally intended. It also took longer than I thought it would. Gah.
Aaaaand a couple more I yoinked frommissmorrichan:
Leave me an anonymous comment pouring your heart out. Say anything. Tell me your stories, your secrets, those things no one ever asks but you wish to tell. Tell me about your love, your hate, your indifference, your joy. Tell me about what's inside of you when you're reading through these entries on your friends list, and tell me why you continue to come back here. Tell me anything. Tell me what you really think of me or yourself. Anything.
Post anonymously. Speak honestly. Post as many times as you like.
---------------
"How many times has someone on your friends list posted about something and you were really confused, but you didn't want to ask because you knew you SHOULD know? How many times have you felt 'guilty' asking a close LJ friend a question that should be 'obvious'?
"Well, here's your chance. If you've missed a few things, missed an entry and are confused, ask me anything. Even something EXTREMELY basic, like where I live! I'm not going to get irritated at any of the questions - we've all missed things before, so ask away!"
OKAY I THINK THAT'S ENOUGH MINDLESS RAMBLING FOR ONE POST GOD WHY DID IT TAKE LIKE TWO HOURS TO WRITE THIS
The roads on our street are getting rebuilt. I don't really know why since the roads seemed perfectly fine to me, but I think it has something to do with stability or something..? Because they're seriously just tearing everything out, including the curbs and driveway ends and stuff. I dunno. I guess if it had to be done then it's a good thing that they're doing it, but it's kind of annoying since now we can't really leave the house. Not to mention that the construction workers come in at like 5 AM and like to make as much noise as possible, with the random screaming arguments and singing and setting the neighbor's yard on fire. No, really.
Soooo, looks like Spore is coming out September 7th. I freaked out over this game when I first heard about it, but thinking about it now, it... well, it actually looks kind of boring. Maybe I'm being kind of hard on it due to my deep-seated hatred of sim games (aside from The Sims/Sims 2, but y'know), but in my experience, games where you just run around without any actual sense of an ulterior motive can only remain interesting for so long before you just get sick of the whole thing and never pick it up again. This is why I could never get into MMOs -- you fight enemies, level up, maybe do a quest or two, and... that's it. That's the game. You don't have any real goal or purpose besides "get stronger so you can fight stronger enemies," and while that may seem fun for a while, it usually doesn't take too long before the whole thing just feels completely pointless.
But like I said, maybe I'm being hard on it. See, I played a TON of sim games when I was younger -- Sim Park, Theme Park, Sim Theme Park, Theme Hospital, Sim Ant, Sim Earth, Sim Farm, Sim City, Sim Copter, Rollercoaster Tycoon, Zoo Tycoon, Sim Safari, Pharaoh, Pet Shop (ahahahaha), both Animal Crossing games, two Harvest Moon games, Catz/Dogz/Babyz, Creatures, and probably a bunch of other things I'm forgetting, and every single one of them would always leave me feeling... well... okay i'll say it THEY LEFT ME EMPTY INSIDE, OKAY? They never end, they take forever to progress in, there's no reward, no point, and after a while they become impossibly difficult so you feel like you're just fighting an uphill battle and losing in the process. It's either that or the ones like Hey You, Pikachu!, where, once you've done everything there is to be done, you're then turned loose so you can do nothing but help that freaking Bulbasaur make its lunch and beat the crap out of pinatas for the rest of eternity. Why even bother with it?
... but, knowing me, I'll still wind up checking it out just to see if I'm wrong about the whole thing. I heard a rumor that it's coming out for the Wii, so maybe I can rent it, but if not then I think Wish is going to buy it, so I can just mooch off of her. Haw haw. why do i do this to myself
TL;DR: SPORE LOOKS BORING AND I HATE SIM GAMES. LET ME BABBLE ABOUT THIS FOR THREE PARAGRAPHS.
On that note, Apollo Justice comes out... today, I guess! :B Since it's currently 2 AM and everything. I wont get to play it immediately since we just ordered last night and chose the cheapest shipping (5-10 business days), but still. Can't wait!
Videos I've been meanin' to post:
I have so much respect for these guys, seriously. They can have someone break a board over their head and not even flinch, and meanwhile I can barely make myself hold still long enough to take eyedrops. I AM SUCH A FAILURE but yeah, hardcore. :D
WE'RE JUMPING ONTO WHITE BASE! AAAAAAAAAAAAA
Am I lame for laughing at this
The most awesome one yet.
This guy has a lot of REALLY fascinating Super Smash Bros. Melee videos that pretty much just delve into every little tiny detail of the game and point out what it references. It's so amazing to see how much care Nintendo puts into making Smash Bros. games, it really is. I still haven't made it through all the videos.
JESUS CHRIST. I really wanna play this game now. Also, that music is totally awesome. ALSO, THIS.
Y'know, despite how ridiculously unfair and difficult this game is, it's actually very interesting, I think! Just all the references and how each level represents a certain game, and... I dunno. SHUT UP
This cracks me up no matter how many times I watch it. Sulfur hexafluoride is pretty cool, though.
I need to try this.
AND JUST WHILE I'M POSTING RANDOM CRAP, HAVE SOME MEME I GANKED OFF OF
waywardoctagon!Once you've been tagged, the rules are you have to write a blog with 10 interesting facts/things/habits about yourself.
Finish by choosing 10 people to be tagged and list their names
1. - Duhhhhh... I'm... left-handed. I guess I'll start with that. Thankfully I've never gotten any stupid discriminatory comments or anything (LEFT-HANDED PEOPLE ARE CHILDREN OF THE DEVIL), though people do seem to be pretty mystified by it whenever they find out. Hahaha.
On that note, I should really get some left-handed scissors or something, since right-handed ones hurt like a mother. HOW DO YOU PEOPLE USE THOSE THINGS
2. - This is probably the nerdiest thing I am ever going to say in the history of ever, but here it goes.
I like to learn. That's not really a secret; I've mentioned this a few times before and sometimes post links to various edumacational videos or sites or whatever in this journal. You guys probably know this.
What I haven't told anyone, though, is that my motivation for learning is so I can apply the stuff I've learned to my characters and my little fantasy world thing that I swear to God I will do something with someday. Like... psychology helps me write realistic characters, biology helps me make believable alien races, history gives me ideas for... er... historical events. That sort of thing. Whenever I'm studying something and start to get bored or drift off, I can just tell myself "Hey, maybe I can use this!" and I get all into it (either that, or I'll look at this catalogue we have for our local community college. Looking at the classes there get me all motivated to finish high school so I can take them :B). I even have a folder called "~Center of Knowledge~" that I'm working on filling up with various notes and stuff. Yes. God I am the lamest person ever
3. - I am ridiculously forgetful and absent-minded. I'm always doing things like pouring myself a glass of water and forgetting to take it back to my room, or setting my retainers on the bathroom counter and forgetting them by the time I leave, or telling myself I'm going to do something and then forgetting what it was. And just now I thought about typing this up, then I minimized for a second to refresh my friends page and had to take a few moments to remember what I was going to say when I opened this back up. AGH
4. - I have insomnia, hence why I'm always up so late. It takes me many hours to get to sleep without pills of some sort (which reminds me, we're out). I really envy those of you who don't have it >O YOU PEOPLE AND YOUR SLEEPING
5. - It may not seem like it online, but offline I am actually very introverted and extremely shy/socially anxious :O Online you can talk to me and I'll be all capslock and silly and outgoing, but if you came up and said hi to me in real life, I'd just stammer out a reply and shuffle around and not know what to say, all while turning progressively more red. Like a radish. Because radishes are very socially awkward vegetables. wait what
But this is why I'm kind of worried, like... if I were to ever meet you guys in real life, like at a con or something. I mean, I think it'd be great and everything, but I'm just worried I'd wind up being a big disappointment. D:
6. - I have a fairly smallish appetite and tend to get nauseated a little easily (especially in cars, though that's a different topic :B). It's mainly just the real heavy/hearty stuff that gets me, like hamburgers and beef stew and pancakes (MY MORTAL ENEMY) and so on. My stomach is churning just thinking about it, gah.
But yeah. Maybe this is why I'm so scrawny. I JUST NEED A GREAT BIG HAM SANDWICH, THAT'LL SET ME STRAIGHT
7. - I don't like being touched that much. I'm not the sort of person who will FLIP OUT SJGKHDFGKADGK over being touched or anything, but I just get kinda uncomfortable and... non-responsive, I guess? Family members and close friends are alright, though. :D
8. - I'm actually not a huge fan of chocolate. I don't mind it in small doses, like on a sundae or in a cookie or something, but if it's like one of those desserts you get at restaurants and stuff where it's all chocolate cake with chocolate icing and chocolate syrup and chocolate chips on top, then it's just... blehhh. SOUNDS LIKE A STOMACH ACHE, TO ME >(
On that note, my favorite type of chocolate is white chocolate. IF NOT BEING A BIG FAN OF CHOCOLATE WAS ENOUGH TO CONVINCE PEOPLE THAT I'M INSANE, THEN THE FACT THAT I LIKE WHITE CHOCOLATE IS SURELY THE FINAL NAIL IN THE COFFIN
9. - Uh... my reading comprehension is at college level! Or at least that's what the standardized tests back in 6th (5th? I dunno) grade said. Kinda cool, I guess.
10. - I'm reeeeeally debating over whether or not I should put this here, and I'm probably going to horribly regret this when I wake up tomorrow, but I actually had a slightly rocky childhood. It's not something I generally talk about since there's never any real reason to, and I wouldn't even think of trying to compare it with someone who actually had it bad, but I just never really emotionally connected with anyone. Kids at school didn't like me for some reason and singled me out, my siblings hated me (I thought so, anyway. If they did care, then they sure didn't show it in front of me), their friends didn't like me, and my parents, while nice, were on the negligent side. I just had a hard time being accepted by people (which is odd, since there wasn't much about me that needed accepting in the first place. Shy kid who likes cartoons and games and playing pretend, 'has a bit of a smart mouth at times but it's all in good fun. so terrible and weird omg), and had to just entertain myself, pretty much (and I usually turned to video games and the computer to do so. SURPRISE!!!!). I'M REALLY TRYING TO PUT EVERYTHING LIGHTLY HERE SINCE I DON'T WANT TO BRING THE WHOLE POST DOWN WITH MY ANGSTY CHILDHOOD MEMORIES, but I really did have a pretty rough time; 'took a huge blow to my self-esteem, confidence, and self-perception. It actually wasn't until semi-recently (one, two years ago?) that things finally started flowing a bit more smoothly and I got over my depression and everything. Things are much, much better now, and I have, for the most part, moved on. I still suffer from some of the side-effects, but I'm working on that. Things didn't start out very well, but they've perked up. It just took a lot (a lot, you have no idea) of patience.
But, uh... ayup. IT EXPLAINS A LOT, REALLY. But y'know, in a way, I wouldn't change any of it. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, right?
Man, this whole thing came out a lot longer than originally intended. It also took longer than I thought it would. Gah.
Aaaaand a couple more I yoinked from
missmorrichan:Leave me an anonymous comment pouring your heart out. Say anything. Tell me your stories, your secrets, those things no one ever asks but you wish to tell. Tell me about your love, your hate, your indifference, your joy. Tell me about what's inside of you when you're reading through these entries on your friends list, and tell me why you continue to come back here. Tell me anything. Tell me what you really think of me or yourself. Anything.
Post anonymously. Speak honestly. Post as many times as you like.
---------------
"How many times has someone on your friends list posted about something and you were really confused, but you didn't want to ask because you knew you SHOULD know? How many times have you felt 'guilty' asking a close LJ friend a question that should be 'obvious'?
"Well, here's your chance. If you've missed a few things, missed an entry and are confused, ask me anything. Even something EXTREMELY basic, like where I live! I'm not going to get irritated at any of the questions - we've all missed things before, so ask away!"
OKAY I THINK THAT'S ENOUGH MINDLESS RAMBLING FOR ONE POST GOD WHY DID IT TAKE LIKE TWO HOURS TO WRITE THIS
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Date: 2008-02-21 02:20 am (UTC)Pfff yeah, I mean I can theoretically see the appeal (I remember grinding for hoooouuuurs in Earthbound, until it put me into almost a trance state, and enjoying that) but... eh....
Haha, just watching that guy play it, it came through... I like watching people play games. :B I mean video games and sometimes board games, becaue let's face it sports are dulllll.
Isn't it?! :D I love her rants; they're so interesting to read. It's everything I love about reading nonfiction about writing.
Hahaha, I should have known. :D She convinced me to play it, too, with her talking about it
mainly about ZEX cough. :D