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-forgot to mention, but we went to texas several weeks ago to visit grandparents. they seem to be doing pretty well, actually, which was good to see.
-JUST got back from eureka springs. stayed there a couple of days for mom's birthday. it was pretty nice, haha. ( have some pics [17] )

i normally hate it when people add their own music to these things, but in this case, it just makes it more hilariously surreal

Get your own valentinr
DO IT DO IT YEAH DO IT WOO

sooo
+joanne's out of the hospital
+papa's surgery went well
+have FINALLY started reading drawing on the right side of the brain, which pretty much every artist ever swears by. shoulda read it years ago, but better late than blah blah I'M EXCITED
+this shirt
+nmh2 comes out soon oh god oh man
do i want to buy it right when it comes out though?? so expensive. same deal for the edgeworth game.
+for a while it seemed like everything was going wrong for just... everyone, but i think things are lightening up now.
-apparently they might've found something else during papa's surgery. won't know until later today.
-other family issues that i don't really feel like getting into.
-conaaaannn wahhhhh
-I'M SUCH A SISSY UUUUGH i don't wanna talk about it but i just hate it, i'm supposed to be tougher than that.
?dad's talking about going up to lake haven for a while to help out, if my other relatives haven't taken care of everything. i'm thinking of going, too.
?dad's going to retire in the fall. my parents keep talking about moving somewhere but have no idea where. mom wants to live in europe for a year, i think.

man i could totally do another art post but i'd have to scan things and i'm tired meh

the ♥ fanart love ♥ meme

i don't like doing memes that don't allow people to say something bad about me, too (i guess just leave constructive crit stuff here or something), but i am always in need of some good art motivation, so... i also figure it's a good time to get it since i'm trying to do christmas sketches hahaha

fantastic mr. fox is really great, and i have been very diligently avoiding the word "fantastic" to describe any part of it. it was awkward trying to get used to how it was paced and acted, but aside from that, no complaints. the art style was definitely the best part; i never got tired of looking at it. i really wish i could find the montage that introduces boggis, bunce, and bean for the first time, since something about the visuals there really stood out as being totally amazing BUT I CAN'T FIND IT ANYWHERE it's driving me nuts

i went to an osteopath the other day. mom had me go since she thought it'd help a bunch of stuff, and i really did feel better afterwards (and then ridiculously tired so i went and fell asleep for over two hours when i got home). apparently my skeleton was pretty weird; my hips were turned and i think part of my spine was too, and there was something about the left side of my body being kind of locked up, and my jaw was pretty weird. i'm also hyper-sensitive to touch so every touch (mainly on my back) had this ADFLKGJADLG reaction, which isn't normal. i also have flat feet. wtf.
so yeah, i have to go get arch supports in my shoes and get tested for allergies and then i'm gonna go back. hopefully i will ACTUALLY HAVE ENERGY AGAIN once i'm all done.

oh yeah and i still need addresses from waywardoctagon and ameliorer. and uhh who all wanted to send me cards again, i could use a list. i can't get a PO box until friday, but i can sure make a list. ALSO to everyone who asked if i wanted a gift JUST SURPRISE ME since i never know what to ask for haha plus i tend to feel weird makin' people do stuff

i hate sore knees

hey, everyone still needs to comment on the holiday post! also, i still need addresses from everyone.



this makes me laugh harder than it probably ought to

( question answering/asking meme and a lyric-guessing meme )

aaaaaaand

( art [19] )

AAAAAAAAND

-HOTEL DUSK 2 CONFIRMED YES YES YES MAN BETWEEN THIS AND PERFECT PROSECUTOR I'M GONNA DIE
-drove for the first time a few days ago. a couple years late, but whatever. it was easy. need to take driver's ed.
hahaha i was perfectly calm the whole time, but mom was all freaked out (at least during the start). it probably didn't help that my reaction to making mistakes was just WHOOPS HAHAHA THAT WAS KINDA COOL
-john had his 31st birthday. looking forward to properly celebrating when he and sherah come up for thanksgiving!
-turns out that my step-grandma's breast cancer is worse than they thought, so she'll have to get a double-mastectomy. she'll still be fine, as far as anyone can tell, but it's a shame she has to go through all that. i hope she calls off the thanksgiving reunion since she really ought to just rest after that, but she's so stubborn. i dunno. we'll see.
-mom: they're not showing "this is it" anymore... i guess now it's "that was that."
-saw "men who stare at goats." it was hilarious and fun, and i kept thinking of psychonauts the whole time.

GOD THIS ENTRY IS CROWDED

heydudeicons update.
also, the philippines fundraiser at supercharitygo is still going on. go check it out.

man, i haven't felt like myself lately. i try to act normal, but it just doesn't feel right, and even the prospect of halloween hasn't been cheering me up. i dunno what's gotten into me, but i wish it'd go away so i can go back to
whatever i was before
an idiot
i dunno

i've been playing a ridiculous amount of saints row 2, which is really fun. i beat all the brotherhood missions and am currently working on the sons of samedi (who are a lot more entertaining. so much voodoo and drugs). even character creation is a load of fun. i thought about making martha stewart or paul reubens, but then i went down a more animu path instead it's hilarious don't judge me goddammit
i put him in a bra and a thong and fishnet stockings and high heels

real life stuff: my step-grandma has breast cancer. they found it really early, though, so it's very likely that she'll pull through just fine. tryin' to think of stuff to bring for thanksgiving, since she's not going to do any cooking. i guess i could make cookies? it's about the only thing i know how to make aside from pasta, which isn't exactly thanksgiving food to my knowledge

also, we've possibly sold our old house. it's been on the market for about five years, just draining us of money and making us clean up after loads of shitty tennants. i'm trying to avoid getting my hopes up since nothing's final right now, but god i hope these people buy it. it would free us up so much.

uhhh nothing else is coming to mind, so, question: am i intimidating/difficult to approach? this is completely unrelated to the rest of the post, so don't think people are coming down on me or anything, but it's just something i've wondered from time to time. be honest, anon's fine, etc.

oh, i forgot to mention that i've been to TWO concerts, lately. one was jeffrey porter and skinfornia, and the other was jacob fred. both were really awesome. jeff porter was held at this tiny little liberal art museum that was very pleasant and comfortable, and the displays were like... well, they were all sorts of things, but the ones that stood out to me were the ones that supported lgbt--there were photos of gay couples, a poem about a transsexual couple, etc. it was really, really great to see those things in this city, especially considering that i was reading all this stuff the night before about how terrible lgbt discrimination is here, and how it's actually still legal for us to kick lgbt people out of their apartments/fire them from their jobs/deny them access to loads of public stuff/etc, just because they are who they are. so it was a relief to see some support there, even though it's small. gives me some hope.

AND YEAH THE BAND WAS GOOD, HAHAHA i had no idea what to expect and it turned out it was tribal drums and stuff. it's not something i usually listen to, but i still really enjoyed it. jacob fred was, of course, great, and a little more up my alley. he just played at a club that was still small, but way bigger and louder than the museum. i felt like both bands tended to drag on a lot, though; i think more concise stuff would've had a bigger punch. but that's just me. i still liked them a lot.

anyway, memes

( which chess piece am i omg )

so, funkicarus started a sort of meme about art supplies and why you use them. i think i'll also borrow from zarla a bit in that i'll also talk about methods and stuff, since i barely put any thought into art supplies, hahaha
( BEHIND THE MAGICIAN'S CURTAIN )

and finally, gotta do an anon meme every now and then:
THE "i've always wanted to tell you" MEME

thanks for all the birthday wishes! i had a great one. turns out that the casinos here JUST raised the minimum age to 21, however, so i never did that. they did it because they all serve alcohol now or something. it's really weird to think that i'm now old enough to do like ANYTHING yet i'm still banned from places because there's budweiser around, btw.
SO i didn't do anything special (never do, really), just ordered some pizza and watched the dana carvey show. i am totally not complaining about that, though, because that was awesome. i always feel weird telling everyone what i get as gifts for some reason, so uhhh i'll just mention a few things: i got left 4 dead, which is very fun and i've been playing a lot of it lately. i also got dead rising, which i've been horribly curious about ever since it came out, so i'm very excited about that. got professor layton and the diabolical box, and iiiii JUST started chapter three, i think (twitter-followers are already well aware that i have this, i'm sure). also got san andreas, which is kinda funny since neutraltwin and i were just talking about that, haha. and... OH
I HAVE A QUESTION
IS SAINTS ROW 1 ANY GOOD? i asked for saints row 2 and got the first one instead, and i'm trying to decide whether i ought to exchange it. IF 2 IS REALLY AMAZING COMPARED TO 1 THEN I WILL
AND OF COURSE i got this amazing picture from tigerboat, which contains my four favorite Ls in the ~whole world~. i was very thrilled to get this. TIGER KNOWS ME TOO WELL
and, uh, the rest is just books and a pre-order for scribblenauts and stuff. haha, before i turned 18 i groaned in pain over how old it was, but now, whatever. as soon as it hit midnight i was already used to it somehow. NOW I'M GROANING IN PAIN OVER THE THOUGHT OF TURNING 20 IN A COUPLE OF YEARS

in other news, john got robbed. hahahaha what a dramatic change of mood-- but no, he just came home last night and found the back door kicked in and his ps3, two macbooks, and 52" tv were all gone. right now the suspects are these teenagers who knocked on the door beforehand asking for "carlos" and generally acting strange. whoever it is, i'm hoping the police will catch them, since from what i hear they sound pretty sloppy and stupid.
john has insurance, thankfully, but also has a $1000 deductible. i dunno, the whole thing sucks and it happened at a shitty time, since john is working a lower-paying job and is really strapped for cash and currently trying to sell his house. he doesn't need people stealing his crap and wrecking his home on top of everything else. i'm not worried that he won't get things back together--he always bounces back pretty well--but man, his whole situation right now just bites.

uhhh i had more things i wanted to talk about but i'm tired

( COMMENT AND I'LL PICK 6 OF YOUR ICONS AND MAKE YOU TALK ABOUT THEM BLAH BLAH )

man i wanna go to that david sedaris thing i mentioned but it turns out it's like $80 per ticket fffff

oh yeah, i never did that vacation post

( i guess i'll do it now (extremely imageheavy) )

jesus that took way too long. nobody is going to read this whole thing.

I'M HOME
AGAIN
actually got home yesterday, but eh. also wound up pulling an all-nighter last night because i couldn't sleep despite being up since 7 AM and sitting in a car for... what, 18-20 hours or something. I WAS UP FOR 42 HOURS YESTERDAY and still woke up at 9 AM today, amazingly

but anyway. santa barbara was great! perfect weather, gorgeous scenery, great food, etc. plus, hanging around john is always fun, and i got to meet his new girlfriend, sherah. i was frustrated about having to drive and everything, but it was all right. i've traveled so much that i'm pretty used to this stuff, really.

i have assloads of pictures and notes, will make a big vacation post later.

( pick 10 pictures that represent you and durrhurrhurr durr hurr )

okay first of all BILLY MAYS
NOOOOOOOO
JEEZ IT'S DAVID CARRADINE, ED MCMAHON, FARRAH FAWCETT, MICHAEL JACKSON, AND NOW BILLY MAYS
THIS IS THE WORST MONTH EVER

i'm sad about billy more than the rest, though. i just saw him on conan! i bet the shamwow guy secretly threw that suitcase at him as REVENGE for that scorching SHAMWOW MORE LIKE SHAMPOW burn
i actually looked up some old billy mays infomercials out of SORROW and found this. before i would've cracked up, but now it's just depressing ;_; why, billy mays
though a cool thing that happened when michael died: like, 10-15 minutes after hearing it, we decided to go out to eat, and drove past someone on the corner of a busy intersection all dressed as michael and doing different dances he did. i guess he was an impersonator? though when we were driving home there was like A GROUP that was taking turns dancing and wearing the michaelhat, so i guess anyone could join in. too bad i don't know shit about dancing or i would've jumped in HAHAHA
(i guess i'm sort of late posting about this, but i didn't really feel like posting earlier, haha)

guhhh i have no motivation to do anything. i have been so bad about doing art for this past month or two. it's not really art block since i HAVE ideas, i get them all the time and i get excited about them, but then i think about actually having to work on them and i just... don't want to. or i'll doodle something for a while and get bored/impatient, and even just mustering up the will to do THAT much takes effort. i guess it's just some kind of... productivity block more than anything (and some art angst mixed in since my art is crap, fffff), but i want it to go away, jeez. i guess the only cure is to just MAKE myself do art until i eventually get back into it, but hnsdfkgjhks

oh man i'm so hungry. also this song is really addicting wtf