tl;dr and then some.

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you are lightcyan #E0FFFF

Your dominant hues are green and blue. You're smart and you know it, and want to use your power to help people and relate to others. Even though you tend to battle with yourself, you solve other people's conflicts well. Your saturation level is very low - you have better things to do than jump headfirst into every little project. You make sure your actions are going to really accomplish something before you start because you hate wasting energy making everyone else think you're working. Your outlook on life is very bright. You are sunny and optimistic about life and others find it very encouraging, but remember to tone it down if you sense irritation.

the spacefem.com html color quiz

This is actually very accurate, except for the part about YOU'RE SMART AND YOU KNOW IT because I have no confidence. Speaking of which, I really need to stop thinking about certain things so much since I'm starting to depress myself.

You know what sucks?

It sucks when your parents ask you if you want to go for a walk, and you reply with "Maybe in a second" since you just woke up, but then they go ahead and leave without you so you scramble all over the place, put on pants, start to go out the front door and decide to go out the back, double back for the bathroom, then finally burst outside and run three blocks in 80-90° weather with the sun bearing down on you, while wearing a long t-shirt and pants (both dark), AND while wearing sandals since you knew that if you wasted more time by tying your shoes then you'd never catch up...
... and then once you do they're just sort of like "oh look who's here lol" and proceed to walk up a gigantic hill without stopping, and then just go "you're fine, whatever" when you ask to take a different route so you don't have to climb up another steep hill at the end of the walk.
In retrospect, it was probably stupid to not put on tennis shoes, since now my ankles hurt like a mother. OW, WALKING

Man, my dad is sixty, now. That's so hard to believe. Jeez, and John's gonna be thirty in a little while. Everyone's getting old
Speaking of family, I love my sister dearly, she's a good person, smart, I think she's super, but every time she talks about gender I just... gaaaah. She seems to think that men should act like men and women should act like women and if you act like anything else then you're weird, gay or both, and considering I have a really boyish personality and little to no interest in stereotypical "girly" things, that can get... a little offensive. Tonight she was describing some guy on TV who was transgender, and she said "transgender" with air quotes and went on about the guy in this condescending tone of voice and finished with "Uh. Yeah." like she just finished describing some convoluted b-movie plot about giant lizards from Mars or something. I can't even go clothes shopping with her because she has to put so much emphasis on how THIS ONE IS REALLY FEMININE, WHICH IS GOOD, AND I KNOW YOU DON'T LIKE TO THINK IT IS, BUT YOU ARE A GIRL, and auhdfgkhjad no, I honestly do not feel comfortable wearing really girly things, it's not who I am, I'm going to buy this baggy t-shirt and cargo pants now

Beat RE4, as well as Separate Ways and Assignment Ada. Might play through it again since it's short and unlocked things intrigue me. The Mercenaries is pretty fun, but man do I ever hate that Dr. Salvador-type guy. It'd be fine if it was just a normal Dr. Salvador or if there was only one per level, but instead there's a bunch and they're on freakin' speed and have to flail their chainsaws all over the place and I tell ya man, they're total godmoders
Also fffffffffff Regenerators. It's not really fighting them that scares me, it's just... everything else. Their battle music, their breathing, the way they move, the way their waist/legs stumble for a moment after you blow up their torso, their locations (seriously, was it just me or did all the Regenerator spots have the creepiest atmospheres in the whole game adfgj).

I've been working on going through all my old entries and f-locking/privating the embarrassing ones, and also going through old screencap adventures and tweaking the commentary slightly. I MUST HIDE EVERYTHING FROM MY PAST. Of course, I'll probably look at these entries in a few years and be like GOD I WAS SO STUPID, soooo

owww my ribs. I should really get them checked, they've been bothering me for months.

Comments

[puddinchan.livejournal.com]

Contrary to belief, I don't actually like it when people assume I'm a stereotypical girl. I do actually LIKE talking about video games, and playing video games which involve stuff like BLOWING PEOPLE UP. And I do like clothes shopping, I just don't follow trends. *wore a men's size star wars t-shirt on non-uniform day, lol. got a lot of stares, lol more.* I once got asked in ICT in a survey some girls were doing...

Girl 1: Hey, Puddin, what's your favourite brand?
Puddin: I don't have a favourite brand.
*People surrounding stare in disbelief.*
Girl 2: Just list her as Gucci. *lol*
Girl 1: *lol, writes Gucci*
Puddin: (Is it that hard to believe that a girl DOESN'T CARE ABOUT fashion?! I don't know what Gucci is...)

...Have I mentioned I don't like fashion? And someone also thought I'd scream and put up an umbrella or something because they thought I wouldn't want to get my hair frizzy. *sigh...*

[tigerboat.livejournal.com]

I always think of you as girly...maybe that's just because you're girly in comparison to me. You wear dresses and everything!
I'm all thick fleeces to hide the girl-tops the family buys me and trousers. The fact that everyone seems to think I'll just grow out of boyishness just strengthens my determination.

What is this "brand" you speak of?

[puddinchan.livejournal.com]

I wear girly clothes, and I like pink, but I'm not a stereotype. Maybe when I was younger, but not now. Come on, I like Worms. That's not very girly. :| ...Huh. I don't think you'll grow out of your masculinity.

The Wikipedia article. The aforementioned girls were laughing sarcastically as they listed me as a liker-of-Gucci-which-I-am-not. What's so great about fashion, trends, and brands? It limits what clothes you want, or can buy.

[doxinator.livejournal.com]

Y-yeeeeeeeaaaahhhhh you always struck me as really girly. Not, y'know, "oh my god fashiooonnn" girly, but nevertheless. I mean, you've even called yourself really girly and get offended when people say otherwise ahkdfgjhajkdhfg. I guess I'll try to be more considerate.

Yeah, that's pretty gross. I mean... honestly? I don't think it's bad at all if someone is girly OR manly as long as they're good people and everything, you know? If a girl loves fashion then that's completely fine, there's nothing inherently wrong with that, but when they foist it on everyone else and expect all girls to love it as well and if they don't then they're freaks, then that's when I want to punch them in the mouth. It's just as bad as men who think all other men should love sports and if they don't then they're gay, you know? I need to stop saying "you know"

[puddinchan.livejournal.com]

...Really? Am I a mixed breed of a little boyish and kinda girly, then? :/

They obviously weren't there when I wore a mens' size Star Wars T-shirt, then. >_> Almost every girl in my year is almost exactly the same; fashion-loving, rumour-spreading (sometimes about me), little... witches. Really, it's just sad. There's more to life than clothes and boys.

[tigerboat.livejournal.com]

You're a girl who plays violent videogames and has a weird sense of style. Every puzzle has an answer!

[puddinchan.livejournal.com]

And I won't think otherwise! Because, even if someone told me I'd be prettier if I cleaned myself up (which I won't), I won't change my way of thinking any time soon! :D

yay new gibbs icon. <3 THE ONLY MAN AMONGST A LOT OF WOMEN.

[tigerboat.livejournal.com]

You mean you won't be prettier or you won't clean yourself up? (Which...makes you sound dirty somehow, which you aren't.)

CHECK IT OUT I GOT A NEW ONE TOOOOOOO still doesn't change my "male icons : female icons" ratio

[puddinchan.livejournal.com]

I'll look pretty in my own way. If men are attracted to me, it's their problem unless I'm attracted to them as well, then they're more than welcome to stare.

Teehee. You make Gibbs smirk.

[neutraltwin.livejournal.com]

Haa, I think I got basically the same result for that colour quiz. I remember at least the middle bit was exactly the same.

I can relate to that Stereotypical Girl thing; even though I'm a guy, we get our own set of 'oh, you're a guy, you must do this!' forced on us, and it's really like...uh. No? Funny enough, I don't like sports, or chasing after women, or drinking. I'd prefer to stay home or hang out with friends, and somehow enjoying reading and the company of women makes you ~*less of a man*~.
A couple of years of Gender Studies have only made this more irritating to me, too. XD

Oh geez, d'you mean those mega-Salvadors in Mercenaries which have the huuuuge double-chainsaws? I hate those guys. D:
You're not wrong about the Regenerators too; I've played through that game so many times, and they still scare the shit out of me, all hiding in corners and stuff. That breathing is just...nngh.

Be sure to use Krauser in Mercenaries, though! He KILLS EVERYTHING. |D

[doxinator.livejournal.com]

We're COLOR TWINSSS

Ahh yes, guys get shitty stereotypes as well. YOU MUST ALWAYS BE AS MACHO AND MANLY AS HUMANLY POSSIBLE AND YOU BETTER BE ABLE TO GODDAMN LIFT 300 LBS WITHOUT BREAKING A SWEAT YOU WIMP
IF YOU EVER SHOW EMOTIONS AND IT'S NOT BECAUSE YOUR DRINKING BUDDY GOT SHOT IN A WAR THEN YOU'RE GAY, GET OUT

Yeah, those guys suck. I hear the distant revving of chainsaws and instead of feeling scared I just sigh and roll my eyes and try to find an exploding barrel to camp by. And you have to get them like RIGHT ON THE BARREL, too, because otherwise they'll just get back up and go back to flailing around like assholes. GOD.
Oh god, probably the scariest part in the game for me was that one place near the end, with the jail cells and stuff. :< The struggling body bag was eerie enough, but then I'm just exploring the cells, minding my own business, and suddenly I hear something and I'm not really sure what it is and assume it's just room noises they threw in to creep you out, but then I hear this distinct breathing sound and turn around and there's a Regenerator RIGHT IN MY FACE
I can't even remember what noise I made, but I think it was something like AGHDKFHGJKAHD

WILL DOOOOOOOO man Krauser is so hilarious

[puddinchan.livejournal.com]

That icon of yours sums up my entire argument about stereotypes. :o

...Men can still be macho without liking sports. >_>

[marigold-tales.livejournal.com]

Hahahaha. I know you feel. I'm far from stereotypically "girly". Sure, I like looking at dresses, can appreciate a certain girly style on some people, but it's just not me. My "style" is comfortable. I WOULD WEAR GUYS CLOTHES IF MY PARENTS WOULD LET ME. But I have confidence in who I am so I just let it slide whenever someone says anything. People like stereotypes. Will always. Have just gotten over it. xD

[doxinator.livejournal.com]

SAME HERE, MAN. I actually think a lot of people can look pretty cute in girlier clothes, but I just don't wear that stuff myself. I am quite comfy in my guy clothes.

Yeah, I try to just let it bounce off. I kind of have to, considering all the careers I want to aim for are like, you know... video games, science, etc. I'M EXPECTING THE WORST